Lame game. XD

It’s around 7:11 pm. I’m at our living room completely staring to my stupid PC who has roughly millions of viruses. Good thing there is no hammer around me or I could have smash this stupid thing by now. How was this virus invented anyway? And what do these exceptionally talented nerds came to their abnormal brains which propelled them to make such thing. Duh, bizarre people aren’t they?

Mugel is on my feet now, rubbing its body against my leg. I think my little runt nephew forgets again to feed this cat. O well, I don’t care. Besides, I really want to get rid of this cat anyway. Last night while on my way to the bathroom to take a pee, I accidentally step on one of Mugel’s “landmines”. And damn! Luckily mugel wasn’t around, because if only that stupid cat was on the vicinity, I would have chopped his head off. Can I be sued for killing a cat? Is there any law that inhibits people here in the Philippines from killing cats brutally? Well if there is such thing, then how about those cats used for dissection in medical affiliated courses? Like in my anatomy class way back. Are we reliable for any criminal case? Maybe they should go hunt our Anatomy teacher instead. And I don’t even remember her name (my anatomy teacher). HAHAA! See how good student I was been?

My Mum is calling me to have dinner. But I was pretending not to hear anything. I have on my ears the headphones but the volume is way too low so I can still hear Alice my Mum shouting and really pissed by now. I’m currently listening to Kris Allens version of kanye’s “Heartless”. The song talks about a girl who had dump him. Questioning about how heartless she has been for living him and yet he still lives with her memories. How pathetic right? I can’t relate to this song. Hahaa!

To cut this crappy post short, I had a normal boring day. Like blaa blaa. I woke up on a freezing morning and had a scorching hot afternoon. Nothing special for this day to share to you guys. boring. Duh. Lame.

When Politicians becomes Commercial models…

Haven’t you noticed these past few months? Our television sets were flooded by political commercials. Well maybe because 2010 election is fast approaching. But the thing here is, they spend hundreds of millions just to air there political advertisements in the primetime shows. One candidate is showcasing a kid driving a “Trisikad” along with his younger sister wishing to become an “Atista”. And there’s this other hopeful candidate reminiscing and even showing to the entire Filipinos his old house and how he worked his ass off before becoming of what he is right and now and so on.

But do people really appreciate such crap? Aren’t we all feed up about these things? Like I mean, c’mon! Were not that stupid aren’t we? Well in my own opinion, they were just a bunch of hypocrites giving false hopes and stupid promises to all of us. I’m not singling out any candidate in here, and my not in favor of anyone as well. What I am pointing out is that, we should be more realistic today. We should be keener with these things. Would you entrust your future with these people just because you always see them in the television? Well for me, I would say no. Hell no! People of the Philippines don’t need commercial models?! What this nation needs is someone who will assure us that he will give his pure plain honesty. And someone who will nurture more the safety and welfare of his people before fattening-up his own wallet and bank accounts.

As youth’s of today, we should do our best to protect our votes and make sure will have a clean and honest elections. Be active and participate. Don’t let anyone deprived your right as inhabitant of this country.

* some people missing *

Yes I have many acquaintances but very few to call as my friends. But recently, I kind of notice something. Little by little some people in my life is beginning to keep there distance from me. I don’t know if we had some problems or issues. But as far as I can remember, I really can’t recall such instances. So I went on doing some self reflection. Because I really want to find out what seems to be the problem. And I ran into some things that might be the cause of these things.

• Lack of time – I know and I’m guilty of this. This past few months I’ve been into a lot of which drawn me far from you guys. I was so busy fixing up things and all, where I tend to forget some important people in my life. I was so pre-occupied with love. Darn.

• Change – I know that the only thing constant in this world is change. Maybe our priorities have just change. And even our personalities did. And I don’t know, maybe I just didn’t recognize it but also me, even I had change dramatically where they find it strange and which also drawn them away from me.

But, I miss them, those times when we just talk senseless things and laugh about it like high. Simply all those times when were just together and all are still fresh in my mind. These were those people who I treasure and entrust my life with. These are those people who are before just a text away and boom they’re there in your very face ready to give their time to cheer you up in your darkest moments.

I know it will be impossible to bring back those moments again. For I know were not the same people as we are before. But if only I could just bring it all back, I would gladly do it. I miss you guys and ill see you soon. I hope.

How was it to be single again?

Yesterday while I was wondering off by myself in the mall, I saw a lot of couple holding hands. They were all over the place and looking cheesy hugging and cuddling each other. I was seating on a bench and completely staring at them like an ignorant little runt. Then suddenly, something came up to my mind. A sudden question came from nowhere.

• Do I look I like them before?
• Are these people really are happy?

Surprisingly there was no single feeling of jealousy I felt while looking at them. I don’t know why but I feel so secure just being by myself that time. And did not wish I was with somebody at that very moment. I don’t know if I was beginning to become recluse or I was just feed up with the thing and I just want pure plain peace and tranquility all by myself as of this moment.

For the longest time, I was running after love hoping to have what they call happiness. But I realized just recently. Happiness is by choice. And you may find true genuine happiness by just opening you eyes to your surroundings. Because when we are in love, we tend to make that person as our world and only source of happiness. And our eyes were so fixed with that person and it makes us blind over the things in our surroundings that matters most.

So for now, all I want is to focus now to myself. I want no stressors in my way. I want to fix the things in my life that needs to be restoration from its previous calamity. Maybe In this way, I can give my very best to whomever that person that may come in my way soon. I know I made so many wrong decisions from my past. And this is the time to make things right in order for me to become a better person and man by tomorrow.

got to OUTERSPACE!

For once I want you to make up you mind. You’ve been hanging me here all this time. I told you to please let me go if you can’t decide which is which. You said your happy being with me. But that is not enough for me. Because I know when you’re with me you’re still thinking of your phalala laa. And it’s getting into my nerves knowing that I can’t have you as a whole at all.

I’ve been through a lot. And you know that damn well. You know what are the things that I have to sacrifice just to make this thing work between us. But it seems to you that don’t recognize a single of it. My friends were telling me to stop this crap and forget you. But the more that I tried to, the more I’m falling for you like hell. And I hate it.

Please, whatever spell you had cast on me, just stop it and give me now the antidote.

And now you’re asking for space? Well go on, I’m giving you all the time in the world to think things and figure what you really want with your life. You know were to find me. But I just want to tell you one thing; I can’t wait for you forever because I don’t believe in forever at all. You’re not the only girl in this world for crissake. I just hope that when the time you made up your mind, I would still recognize you.

Bye for now.
Don’t worry; I won’t drink my ass off again like what I have done before over our first break up. I’m so much better now.

Onse’23

im taking all the BLAME...

Don’t worry, I had expected it anyway. I don’t know but I had it figured out that while you’re thinking things out, you would decide this way. Well, I wanted to acknowledge your honesty and for the first time, you have given me a straight forward answer. And you know I’ve been asking you to just let me know so that it won’t hurt me any further. And yes you did. If you would ask me if it hurts, well it does apparently. Though it seems like a complete de javu but it still hurts. But it’s not as intense as before. Like I was drinking my ass off and crying all over the place. No, not again sorry.

Maybe I wasn’t just good enough for you. Maybe my love wasn’t just enough to overwhelm you. Maybe I’m not just the man you’ve been looking for. Maybe I was such a deep shit asshole who’s madly in love with you and spoiled you with love and it causes you, I don’t know pressure? I guess. Well you how passionate I am as a person, as a lover to you. Well maybe if it was a sin to be all that I am, well I am guilty and I am taking all the blame.

Don’t you worry, I wont be in your way again. No more stupid me whose going to go nuts when he sees a glimpse of you. Because I’m so full and fed up with it. Now I am so damn ready to go on. You don’t have the chain on me now. Where you can make fun of me and make me like your boy toy whenever you wanted to. I don’t miss you at all. I despise every inch of your f**thy personality.

Should I thank you for everything? I guess not. Because honestly, I couldn’t recall a single moment when I’m with you where it makes me ecstatic. It seems like I have this selective amnesia thing where instantly, my brain would block all sorts of memories of you to help aide my bloody mess up soul.

To the people who have been drag again with this issue. My apologies again and I will take all the blame. I know. I know. I know. You have all told me to stop the crap about her and instead find someone more worthy of my love. I’m so sorry for all this SHIT. And know I don’t just learn my lesson once but twice “once is enough, but twice is too much”.

This would be my very last post about you. I won’t going to talk about you ever again here in my blog. I won’t ask you for good luck or God bless because I would really sound plastic. You go on with your way and hope you won’t trip or anything. Plaa la la…

If I had made you and treated you as a princess, and I figured that it’s not enough. Well the next time I falls, she would be my QUEEN. See? I never learned when it comes to love. Love for me is always a dangerous gamble where I always end up going home broke and wasted. But I like gamble and wont stop at all. Lmao.