I FOUND HIM.. yes HIM.

Recently, I was invited by my friend to their church. And his been inviting me for a long time but I was always been hesitant in coming with him. I don’t know why but maybe I wasn’t just ready yet. But suddenly, it was around 4 in the afternoon and I was sleeping at my room. I heard my nephew calling for my Mum because there is someone outside looking for me. I was barely awake and did not care to get up to know who it was. And then moments pass; I realize there is someone in my bedside calling for my name. And when I opened my eyes, it was Kim dressed up. He was inviting me to come with him to their church again. And I was trying to tell him I can’t but a part of me say’s go. Go and experience what he was been telling you. So I get up asked my Mum for permission to come with Kim.

When were there, everyone was so warm and very welcoming. I thought to myself, yeah they were just nice so they can recruit me to their church. But as it all begins. While they were singing their Christian song, I felt something. It was hair rising that I found myself singing along with them. Something in the song struck me. And even the preacher. Or whatever she is, seems like she is talking to me alone. The topic was all about LOVE with your romantic partner and Your LOVE with GOD. I was struck again. Because at those times, I was badly looking for someone to talk to with regards my badly wounded heart. And little by little I came to a realization that I was been missing GOD all along. And he’s been knocking on my doors long enough that I was just neglecting him there.

And when the preacher was having its closing prayer, I found myself crying like a baby. Yes I cried and I don’t know why and how it happens. My tears were very warm that I could feel that it was from my hidden bags of sorrows that I was trying to cover and hide. And in that time, I was able to let all go.

REALIZATION: I know I’m still far from him. But I can certainly say that I felt his presence that time and until now all upon me. His fire energizes me. And now when I was feeling down, I just try to think about him and with just an instance, I feel better. I hope you can experience what I experience as well. GB