Yesterday while I was wondering off by myself in the mall, I saw a lot of couple holding hands. They were all over the place and looking cheesy hugging and cuddling each other. I was seating on a bench and completely staring at them like an ignorant little runt. Then suddenly, something came up to my mind. A sudden question came from nowhere.
• Do I look I like them before?
• Are these people really are happy?
Surprisingly there was no single feeling of jealousy I felt while looking at them. I don’t know why but I feel so secure just being by myself that time. And did not wish I was with somebody at that very moment. I don’t know if I was beginning to become recluse or I was just feed up with the thing and I just want pure plain peace and tranquility all by myself as of this moment.
For the longest time, I was running after love hoping to have what they call happiness. But I realized just recently. Happiness is by choice. And you may find true genuine happiness by just opening you eyes to your surroundings. Because when we are in love, we tend to make that person as our world and only source of happiness. And our eyes were so fixed with that person and it makes us blind over the things in our surroundings that matters most.
So for now, all I want is to focus now to myself. I want no stressors in my way. I want to fix the things in my life that needs to be restoration from its previous calamity. Maybe In this way, I can give my very best to whomever that person that may come in my way soon. I know I made so many wrong decisions from my past. And this is the time to make things right in order for me to become a better person and man by tomorrow.
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